RAWRRPIGGSTER™

2010-11-11T17:06:00.001-08:00

First time in semester 5,

I stayed up late till 2.28 am.

Actually it's the second time,

I really stayed up late to finish my assignment.

You must be thinking I'm a dork.

Haha, I don't care.

I have this principe in life at is

Get up early, sleep early.

I've keeping that principe since what

young, really really young.

So anyways, I woke up like 7.45 am today.

The funny thing is that I don't feel sleepy at all

but I do know that this is gonna get to me in the afternoon.

I'll sure feel crappy and grumpy

at least not at the moment.

But I know I will get grumpy in like 20 minutes.

Don't ask why.

I know.

That's for now

2010-11-10T17:00:00.001-08:00

So here's the story.

I was out for movies,

yesterday and today.

Yesterday I watched Life As We Know It,

So I was enjoying this romantic comedy movie

until this stupid couple repeatingly kicking my seat.

I kept looking back just to give them a hint,

that they are disturbing people.

But this mudafuckas don't fucking get it,

until I said " Can you fucking stop it? "

but I guess they're deaf.

I'm not being racist but I think this malay couple

don't get what I'm trying to say or

can't they look at what they're doing?

I'm not racist.

I was cursing my way out of the cinema.

Today.

I went for " The Other Guys "

Awesome and dope-st movie at the moment.

After the movie,

I went for lunch with my friend, Esther

and found another eye sores.

This chinese couple keep groping with each other.

They look like kitten to me.

Ughh, what is wrong with people these days?

Don't they know that's fucking disgusting?

I know you're having fun but you're giving an eyesore

to the rest of us.

P-D-A

Public Display of Affection

Do it in a room or something,

nobody wants to know whatever fuck you do.

Stop doing it in public.

2010-11-03T17:47:00.000-07:00

Currently this is my job,

it's only week 4 of semester 5.

Creating and drafting out my rough thumbnails,

Esther said

"Where got people do rough thumb like that?

Too neat already la."

And because of this thumbnail,

I took almost half a day to do it.

Stupid and satisfying.

Well,

I'll upload pictures on

KL Bird Park soon.

The BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800

2010-10-23T23:21:00.000-07:00

I've been eyeing on the Blackberry Torch 9800.

I think it's time to change my old ahma phone.

Currently I'm using a Sony Ericsson W850i and I've been so jealous

seeing everyone else with their smart phones.

I thought of getting a new phone but I'm really out of cash because of my studies.

If I was given a choice between Iphone 4

or a Blackberry Torch,

I would choose a Blackberry Torch, cause I love touching keypads.

I don't care if you think I'm weird,

I'm gonna say it again.

I LOVE TOUCHING KEYPADSS!

Let's get to business, shall we?

Blackberry Torch 9800 is the first smartphone with a BlackBerry keyboard

and full 3.2 inch touch screen, and also comes with a 5 MP camera,

8 GB memory expandable with a micro SD card,

and integrated social feeds,

so you never miss out on a single tweet or Facebook update.

Don’t forget the push email and instant messaging capabilities BlackBerries have always been known for!

And the keypadds!!

Come on, who wouldn't want to have

a Blackberry?

Like me, I love communicating with people.

Oh, and twitter,

so with Blackberry you will get every singl

e spec of dust of twitter.

I don't mind with it vibrating the whole night,

it's BLACKBERRY!

Choosing the right plan for your blackberry

Celcom Blackberry gives you the best deals in townand the widest coverage wherever you go!

With that, allow us to introduce the Celcom Exec 50 plan,

where you can get connected with Celcom from as low as only RM50 a month!

Check out some of the benefits you’ll get with the plan:

- 15 sen call rate to any number.

Nothing complicated; just a simple rate to all numbers
- Automatic discounts every month.
- Talk more, save more. The more you use, the more discounts of up to 30% every month
- Low monthly commitment of only RM50.- FREE Celcom Broadband Basic Plan for 1 month with speeds of up to 384 Kbps

I've put up a picture of the Celcom Exec 50,

incase reading make your eyes hurts.

Picture attracted more attention and it make life easier.

AND NOT FORGETTING!

There’s more:

If you’re one of the 1st 100 customers to pre-register

& purchase the new BlackBerry Torch 9800 with the Celcom Exec Postpaid plan,

you get to enjoy the early bird promotion where they’ll throw in the following for FREE:
- Jabra Bluetooth Headset worth RM125
- 8GB Micro SD Card worth RM68
- Energizer Portable worth RM58

You fucking save up to RM251,

just being an early bird.

Not forgetting!
Celcom Blackberry Torch 9800 Launch Event!
Celcom will be launching the Blackberry Torch 9800 this 28 October 2010.
There’ll be amazing deals for the Blackberry Torch when you sign up with Celcom – at the event only!
There’ll also be many other fun activities, prizes and giveaways on the day.

So don’t wait, customers can now pre-register at: http://www.celcom.com.my/celcomexec/blackberry/
bbtorch9800_register.php

Am I making you jealous?

I pray to the LORD,

give me a Blackberry Torch 9800!

AMEN!

Facebook No no's

2010-10-21T22:16:00.000-07:00

Facebook No no’s

A facebook account which do not have a picture. If it is called “FACE”BOOK, why won’t you have your own picture and don’t go putting a picture of some anime, animal or whatever shitty picture as you, unless it’s really you.
Changing your relationship too often and never put “ In a complicated relationship”, we don’t care. That’s retarded.
Too much information on status (TMI)

Example : That’s why he got bumps on this !@#$% and don’t any girl like him. I can’t believe he cheated on me with my sister. IT’S OVER!

Changing your name every minute and complains when facebook barred you of doing it.

- I’m left thinking who the fuck is this, I never added you.

Pisses me off when people changing their status every minute and not saying anything important, it’s just random things like “ I need food/ What’s on the tv to watch/ I’m going to dinner now.” We don’t need to know or care about what’s going on every minute of your boring life. If you want to make a Twitter. That’s what it’s for.
Oh oh oh, it’s stupid liking your own status. If you don’t like it, you won’t post it in the first place. OMGGGG!!
I hate it when I have to accept or ignore Farmville, Mafia Wars and all the other games. I don’t care about your stable, or chickens or Mafia level.
Writing a long status. For heaven's sake it's not blogger la. You wanna type all your grandmother and grandfather's story write it on blogger la. Aduiii!
Don't write something bad about someone if you don't say it to their face.
Be snotty, snarky, or all around jerky. You're (probably) out of high school. Let maturity rule the day during your online time. If someone else picks a fight with you, just defriend them. There's no point in getting ensnared in a Mean Girls-esque cyber war of words.

2010-08-10T17:33:00.000-07:00

Piggster Clothing™

will officially start on 17th August

but you can order and customize your own t-shirt

by sending email to

rawrr-pigg@hotmail.com

For orders, please include details such as:

Name, Email, Address,

T-shirt Size and

Design Description

(animal, monster etc.)

Spread the news around and get your

Piggster Tee

now!

2010-08-09T01:12:00.000-07:00

New product coming soon.

2010-07-01T18:45:00.000-07:00

Time flies

says some people,

for me I think time waits for nobody.

For example work/assignments,

if you didn't finish it up in time

then your work load will pile up.

And soon enough,

you're gonna have headache

because of your own laziness and

ignorance of time.

Another example is death.

In a minute, you're still breathing

and the next minute your breathing stops.

Somehow, time is scary.

Just us, humans take advantage of it.

Time, time, time.

We count them,

we even sang about it.

Think of it.

2010-06-24T17:51:00.001-07:00

It has been a year since Michael Jackson

suddenly and tragically passed away.

On June 25, 2010 world celebrates

his anniversary with candles and songs.

I love Michael Jackson,

he's the most awesomest one!

2010-06-13T17:48:00.001-07:00

I'm back from the trip,

reach Kuala Lumpur at about 1030

after dinner at Genting Sempah.

The whole trip was okay.

The best experience I gained

was climbing up 700 meter hill,

watched the view of the sunrise and cloud sea.

Starting to climb up at 5 am

and reached at around 6.

1 hour of sweat and muscle cramps,

no joke that this hill is very steep but

the ending was an amazing experience.

Plus sun bathing,

got tanned and my skin hurts now.

Not that bad,

just that when the sun hits my skin,

it starts to itch.

Being a green whale floating on the water

is really hilarious.

Green whale is me

cause I was wearing green.

Got pulled in the water a few times

cause I'm not really good at swimming

till the fact I hand walked while swimming.

LOL

Pictures will be uploaded soon.

2010-06-13T17:48:00.000-07:00

I'm back from the trip,

reach Kuala Lumpur at about 1030

after dinner at Genting Sempah.

The whole trip was okay.

The best experience I gained

was climbing up 700 meter hill,

watched the view of the sunrise and cloud sea.

Starting to climb up at 5 am

and reached at around 6.

1 hour of sweat and muscle cramps,

no joke that this hill is very steep but

the ending was an amazing experience.

Plus sun bathing,

got tanned and my skin hurts now.

Not that bad,

just that when the sun hits my skin,

it starts to itch.

Being a green whale floating on the water

is really hilarious.

Green whale is me

cause I was wearing green.

Got pulled in the water a few times

cause I'm not really good at swimming

till the fact I hand walked while swimming.

LOL

Pictures will be uploaded soon.

2010-06-11T19:56:00.000-07:00

Just to tell you, my readers

that I'll be going for a trip

to Kuantan.

Today

12 June 2010

Will be going off at 10.30 pm,

not now but tonight

and will be back on Sunday night.

Pray for my safety

and I hope I'll enjoy the trip.

Take care babes.

2010-06-11T19:40:00.000-07:00

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life,

I'm walking away to find a better day.

Sometimes some people get me wrong,

When it's something I've said or done,

Sometimes you feel there is no fun,

That's why you turn and run,

but now I truly realize.

Some people don't wanna compromise,

Well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies,

and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights,

not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say.

Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over,

And it seems as though the writings on the wall,

Superstar you finally made it,

But once your picture becomes tainted,

It's what they call,

The rise and fall.

2010-06-10T20:47:00.000-07:00

Have you ever feel like screaming at someone's face

and just tell them,

" You hurt me"

Have you ever felt that?

How about feeling that situation

towards someone you love?

I'm feeling it now.

I just wanna say,

" You hurt me "

not in an angry tone but a sad tone.

You hurt me but here I am still waiting every single day

for a phone call from you.

Waiting

for

a glimpse of your smile,

waiting for a time

to talk and hear your voice.

Having no idea

about what you feel about me now

and having no idea what's happening in your life.

I'm still waiting

and holding on.

You hurt me

but why am I holding on to you?

There's something in your eyes

that tells me you still love me

but you just don't wanna show it out?

Why?

Why is it so hard for you to tell me how you feel?

Why is it so hard for you to make that call?

Why is it so fucking hard to just talk to me without doing something else?

Why?

Apple iPhone 4 Design Video

2010-06-09T19:35:00.000-07:00

2010-06-09T17:40:00.000-07:00

The best creation yet,

again from Apple.

Seriously,

the only brand that is superb

are from Apple.

I'm a user of apple also

but haven't really experience their phone yet.

So far even using MacBook Pro,

it's been treating well and awesomely wonderful.

Except for the games section.

A part from that you people have and must

to check out the iPhone 4's retina display.

http://www.apple.com/iphone/features/retina-display.html

( copy and paste )

Personally I would like a phone which as

high picture quality, so this gadget is

perfect as I wanted but

sudah nama pun Apple, sure expensive.

Unless I shit out gold, maybe could get one la.

Please go to their website and check out the features.

It's supercool and also check out

the website for more informations.

Plus there interactive informations like comparison

between iPhone 3g and the latest model.

http://www.apple.com/iphone/features/

2010-06-08T18:14:00.000-07:00

Jessica Edward

says " Each time I get a phone call from you, I'm already asleep and each time I try to recall what I said and heard, I can't remember.

I'm missing you

and i'll try staying awake just to listen to your voice.

2010-06-03T21:33:00.000-07:00

I've got less time to blog now,

regarding my studies and gym work outs.

But hey, I guess it's time to update it.

I've been working on my assignments,

I have to write a book about Petaling Street.

I'm still working on the content,

it's a little weird cause I don't know this place that much

cause it's the least visit place for me but

people have to chance right?

I was picked to become the secretary for the Photography club,

so currently we're busy on a coming up trip

on 12 June to Sg. Lembing, Kuantan.

I have no idea what this place is

and I'm too lazy to check it out on google.

Just wait and see how it goes.

Besides that,

the condition of my grandma is worrying me out.

She was diagnosed with liver cancer but at the moment,

the cancer cell hasn't spread, so we're less worried about it

and she has this bed sore and the wound at the back and

is getting really bad and add on the fact that she

has diabetic, so it's hard for the wound to heal.

So we only can pray for her recovery.

So for any of you reading this,

please put her in your prayers.

Thanks

and

will update soon.

❤

2010-05-24T20:06:00.000-07:00

I don't know about you

but I miss you.

Every night I wait until you come back from work,

wait for you to bath and eat dinner.

Wait for you to call me,

even when I'm having my sleep if I hear the phone ring,

I will get up and answer it.

If I have free time,

I'll send you a message to ask if you're okay

but if you have the free time,

I don't think that I even cross your mind.

I hope one day,

you will realized that everything I do

is for your own good.

I gave you the time you needed

but in return have you ever think of me,

think about the deeds that I sacrifice for you?

The times when I was sick,

the times when I needed you the most..

where are you?

If you think I'm not doing anything,

think again.

All the effort I made is because I still love you.

Hope you understand,

I'm always there when you needed someone to be there for you.

I'm always there to catch you when you fall.

I'm always there when you're having your mood swings,

and when you scolded me for no reason..

I just let it be because I know you're having a rough time.

I hope we could be an understanding and loving couple.

2010-05-18T23:34:00.000-07:00

2010-05-18T23:20:00.000-07:00

I'm inspired by everything now.

Even a dry seed,

gave me inspiration.

It might sound stupid but it's really happening.

And as stupid as it sounds,

I'm having so much fun discovering it out.

Till the next post peeps.

2010-05-02T20:56:00.000-07:00

I'm bored and gonna be crazy soon.

2010-04-30T06:37:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to my best friend, Denise.
Oh and not forgetting Nathan.

Hope both of you have a blast.
Babe, although I'm not here with you
and although I don't see you around but what we had in the old days
will never be forgotten.
Especially your expression when you dine on our Malaysian Chicken Rice.

XOXO,
Love you babe!

2010-04-28T19:31:00.000-07:00

Seriously,
I feel really sad for all that is happened.
I felt guilty the whole night because I thought he deleted his facebook account
but till this morning I found out something that really made me sad.

Honestly speaking I don't see the sense of trust in our relationship.
I'm really torn because of that.

I'm sorry
but I'm really hurt lately.

I just need some time alone.

Just leave me alone.

2010-04-26T18:01:00.000-07:00

I'm so fed-up nowadays.
I don't mix around well in college,
I hate look of sarcasm on their stupid faces.
I'm relieved that I'm having one month semester break now.
At least, I don't have to look at those faces.

My two best friends whom I love so much,
is no longer here with me.
One is far away in America
and the other one, is having so much problem in her life.
I hope she can cope with it.

College is such a hard time,
going to facebook to have some good time chatting with my friends is no longer fun.
Now see, I got myself another place that I would really runaway from.
I hope all these sarcastic people won't come near my blog.

I'm going through a fucking rough time and none of these people is making life worth living.
Early morning, read all those SHIT.
I FUCKING DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU,
JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
ENOUGH SPAMMING!

I hate everything now.
SERIOUSLY EVERYTHING!

LEAVE ME ALONE,
STOP HARASSING ME!

2010-04-20T01:27:00.000-07:00

GORE CONTENT!

DON'T SEE THIS WITH A FULL STOMACH!

WARNING!!

It's not that gore anyways
but it hurt like MF badly.

I bit my lips twice at the same spot and

I didn't notice that I tore this bad

until this morning, I couldn't take the pain

and decided to look in the mirror.

I was like OMFG!

It hasn't cure anyways.

I can't even talk properly

cause each time I talk my teeth will hit the spot

and I will just stop talking.

My mum was like " why didn't you finish the sentence?"

I'm like " what sentence"?

Haha, stupid tear at the lips.

Made me forgot my words.

Here I Am

2010-04-13T00:11:00.000-07:00

I'll protect you, don't be scared
No matter what, I will be there
I'll be gentle, I'll be light
These are the words you whispered in the night

Here I am

Now I'm standing in the cold
Everything is said and done
Atomic winter in my soul
From the absence of the sun
The only remedy I know
Is I gotta let you go

But where were you when I was scared
A broken promise left me here
A post-it note is what I've got
It says: "I'm sorry, but I know you're not"
So, here I am

There will come a day when all of this is in my past
And there will come a day when you're out of my head at last
I'm trying not to fall
Damn it's such a long way down

2010-04-09T19:02:00.000-07:00

Recently I was changing my blog layout,
so I didn't have much time to post something on.
But oh well, here I am with another post.

This week, I had a presentation to do for Moral.
My group finish presenting for at least 12 minutes
but the other group presented for like more than 45 minutes.
And it's fucking boring and I think that dude has a
problem with the internet and he never finishes his sentence.
Keep on saying " hmmm, you know what I mean la",
How the hell we know, you're the one that did the research!

Then finally he ended his loooonng speech,
the lecturer was like commenting and she said
"It doesn't relate to the topic you chose and group took 45 minutes of presenting ."
and I just answer sarcasticly
" More than that actually, I think it was almost an hour."
Then the whole class laughed

Yeah, I was mean but he was really getting on my nerves.

I printed my album t-shirt.
It rocks till the maximum!

I'll post everything up after my End-Term Assessment.
I promise.

It's next next week, please be patient.
Lols!

Mentally stress.

2010-04-02T00:13:00.000-07:00

I really feel very very tired.

I swear to God even know I'm tearing up already,

Nic always say I cry easily but it's not true.

I cry because I'm hurt.

And today I realized that even

I'm not around, no one would really care

because apparently I'm not needed by anyone.

Yesterday,

I was short on cash.

I was hungry till I vomited

and I was having high fever last night.

But no one know not even Nic.

Today,

I was talking and I got cut off.

I was stress but no one is there for me.

I had problems with my phone and I got blamed.

I seriously don't know what to do anymore.

I think I should just play deaf and blind.

Nic don't even gave me a chance to explain what happened,

he just off his phone.

I got no one to turn to but this online diary.

Hoping that someone out there would understand my feelings.

God,

I'm sorry for being so spoiled and thinking negatively all the time

but why are you giving me such a hard time to handle?

I thank you for all the things you gave me,

for all the people that I know especially my family and Nic.

I love them so much and I hope you could protect all of us

and may all of us be a loving and understanding family.

It's okay if you're giving me this difficulty,

I can make it through, I just need time and more patience.

But I hope I have my family and Nic by my side.

Mummy, daddy, Brian and Nicholas,

I love you all.

Please be by my side.

I need all of you the most.

2010-03-30T23:08:00.000-07:00

We have the same shirt

Mine is white and he has dark blue.

He doesn't know yet because he is too busy,

I didn't have the chance to tell him yet.

Wait till he sees this.

I love you bee!

Friends

2010-03-29T18:27:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder

do I have real friends

that I can call friends.

Sometimes I wonder

are friends really there for you

when you need them,

cause it seems like they are

here because they need you.

And not the other way.

Sometimes I wonder

are friends really what they are

when they talk to you.

Are they telling the truth?

Are they really being truthfully being your friend

and not for the sake of to talk to someone.

I wonder.

At least I gave you something for you to wonder.

Photoshop Tutorial Part 1

2010-03-21T17:45:00.000-07:00

This is a photoshop tutorial,

for those who ask me how to

make or change your pictures to look

like polaroid film colors or what I called

rainbow colors.

I'm using Abode Photoshop CS4,

might be a little bit different from the other

versions.

Step 1

- How to make up using photoshop ?

I didn't make up in this photo, so to make it " nicer", I just apply some eyeliner via photoshop.

( P/S : Ignore the face )

Use " burn tool ",

adjust the brush side to around 7,

actually it depends on the picture.

( Tips : Change the range to shadows )

Draw lines or shading to the upper and lower eye lid.

According to your own taste, thick or thin.

( Tips : To make it look not-so fake, use "blur tool"

to blur a little the area that you just burned)

Step 2

- Polaroid color picture ?

Layer > New Fill Layer > Solid Color

A box like below will appear, just click ' OK '

Next, pick a solid color.

( I pick light pink in the below picture )

And click ' OK '

Look at the layer panel.

Change normal to exclusion or difference,

again the choice depends on your current pictures.

As a results, it looks like this.

Look again at the layer panel and change the opacity.

Your current opacity will be 100%,

in this picture I change the opacity to 26%

Step 3

- It's done, enjoy.

The mood of the picture changes when you pick different solid color,

it really depends much on

(a) the current picture

(b) the color you choose as a solid color

I hope it helped, a little maybe.

Click on the picture for clearer images.

2010-03-08T18:05:00.000-08:00

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

(Hardly seems worth it.)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.
(Now that's more like it !)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out of the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
(O.M.G.!)

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.

(In my next life, I want to be a pig..)

A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy..)

(I'm still not over the pig.)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour

(Don't try this at home, maybe at work)

The male preying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.

(Honey, I'm home. What the...?)

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field.

(30 minutes!! Lucky pig! Can you imagine?!!)

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.

(What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day.

(I still want to be a pig in my next life...quality over quantity)

Butterflies taste with their feet.

(Something I always wanted to know.)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.

(Hmmmmmm......)

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people.

(If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)

Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump.

(Okay, so that would be a good thing)

A cat's urine glows under a black light.

(I wonder who was paid to figure that out . )

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.

(I know some people like that.)

Starfish have no brains

(I know some people like that too.)

Polar bears are left-handed.

(If they switch, they'll live a lot longer)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.

(What about that pig??)

Now that you've smiled at least once, it's your turn to spread these crazy facts to someone you want to bring a smile to, maybe even a chuckle.

(and... Gotta love that pig!)

Updates

2010-03-05T20:31:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps, so here's the thing.
I've just finish my assessments and well I didn't actually took photo of them
but what I can give back in return is
I'm going to a trip to Sekinchan, Kuala Selangor tomorrow
with my college Photography club.
I'm gonna make sure I take nice shots
and post in up here.

I'm sort of lazy to snap pictures lately,
oh where oh where art thou photo cam-whore moments went.

Back to where I started,
finish my assessment and no holiday break this time,
due to Chinese New Year.
Probably left about 5 more week until my END TERM!
Which I have to thank my wonderful, err gorgeous.. brrrr-ILLiant LECTURE-ers
for giving the TRIPLE quadruplets assignments.

In the future,
forehead full for pimples, eye bags and a whole load of stress coming my way.

Oh well, it's life.
Enjoy the stress.
Live with it.
Play with it.

2010-03-03T03:11:00.000-08:00

I'm so confused with my own feelings lately.

Babe is coming home soon and I'm having these mood swings.

I'm sad and down when he's gone and when he calls to talk to me,

I get these mood swings and scolded him.

But today I finally realized why am I going through all these stupid emo moments.

I miss him too much,

I'm just so used to having him around and when he's gone

I kinda feel lost and I pretend to be someone I'm not.

I pretend to laugh, I put on a fake smile and take simple things so fucking serious.

At this very moment, I miss him like hell.

Somehow I just wish I could just hug him and never let him go

but unfortunately he's not here.

I learnt to be not clingy to someone anymore.

I learnt to respect each other's private space.

And now I wish he could come back and give me that part of me that's missing these 3 months,

the feeling of being needed by someone,

the feeling of being loved by someone.

Cause when he's not around, I don't feel appreciate by anybody.

Babe, just come home.

Life With Nuffnang.

2010-02-22T19:55:00.000-08:00

Hi people,

this is my first post after I joined Nuffnang.

Well this post will be a little bit different from my previous posts

because in this post I'm

gonna introduce the

top bloggers in my list.

I repeat it again,

in MY LIST!

1. Xia Xue

The reason Xia Xue

is in the top of my list,

is simply because whatever I read and see attracts me.

Attract me in the sense of,

"Oohh, I've gotta know what is coming up next."

Than kind of feeling and mostly is because of her attitude when she blogs.

Definitely you can see a lot of effort was made

in making her blog a success.

Admire her.

[ P/S : My Queen of Blog, My Idol ]

I might freak her out, if she sees this but

if she is seeing this..

All I have to say is

" Keep up the good work and I really enjoy your blog, it's like a journey of excitement

because I can definitely not do this kind of things.

Simply because I don't have the time to work on my blog but

I will try my very best! "

Credits to

xiaxue.blogspot.com

Part 1

( to be continued.....)

2010-02-20T05:25:00.000-08:00

Lately I'm so into boys stuff,
and hip hop dance.
I've been going to the gym for the past one month
and I lost 13 kg.

Now I wanna dance hip hop,
started buying loads of hip hop stuff
and even hungering for more.

On Thursday,
I went to Kota Raya with my parents
to fix my phone, y'all must be thinking
why go so far right?
But well I have the warranty for 2 months more,
so have to go there.

My phone has been acting weird starting
first day of Chinese New Year.
The screen when upside down and
the color going hang wire like spoil TV.

So yea, my beloved darling is in the service factory.

After that, when shopping for Baby Milo T's
that I always wanted.

I got the exact t-shirt,
awesome.
Loving it!

And I'm craving for this shoe.
No idea where I can find it YET.
But I'm gonna search for it.

Till then,
I'm feeling insecure.

2010-02-20T00:40:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday little piggy,
although you can't see this but
I still wanna wish you happy birthday!

2010-02-08T16:51:00.000-08:00

Been really busy these days,

my blog has been dead since.

But now I'm back.

I was sick last week,

stomach muscle cramp.

The amount of medicine I

have to consume.

I think my stomach is full of the 5 day supplements.

My album cover was finally approved,

so now I can breathe a little.

Never know what's gonna happened next.

This is my APPROVED album cover.

2010-01-22T00:36:00.000-08:00

I was waiting for babe to call me for two days.

I waited since 7 - 830 pm,

cause that's when he's free.

And yesterday when I was walking to gym,

at 517 pm my phone rang and I didn't hear it rang

cause my phone was in my gym bag.

518 pm I open my gym bag

and saw one missed call.

It was from babe.

I was like arggghh!!

Then I waited for another call

but he didn't call back.

And this morning 824 and 825,

he called but I didn't get the call.

Don't have line cause I was in the car,

going to college.

I got a message from Maxis,

saying 2 missed calls.

FCUK!!

Babe I'm fine

and it's not I don't want to answer.

It seems like our timing is just not right.

And now my battery is low.

OMG!

2010-01-20T20:46:00.000-08:00

I'm so fucking irritated.

Why?

Because it's just irritating.

I wondered where did all the people who are

worth while to be friends with.

Why am I stuck here with these peoples?

Annoying, loud, demanding people.

Whatever they want,

they just open mouth and they get what they want.

Cakap punya la pandai

but when the time comes,

I don't know where that smart ass went.

When they are in trouble, they know how to find me.

My photo session is hanging loose

and they blardy clever using my camera till the memory card full.

I was fucking pissed off

but did I say anything?

I don't think so.

I'm so effin fucking irritated!

I'm just waiting for the day that I'm out of here.

I'm not thankful for the people I meet here.

Get me out of this hell!

2010-01-19T21:40:00.000-08:00

My blog is dead since

I've entered 3rd semester

and since babe is in NS.

I'm currently busy with

my Graphic Design assignments,

I have to do an album cover.

In which I am the artist and art director.

It sounds cool but not easy to achieve at all.

I'm doing my 4th photo session today,

hopefully the lecturer won't reject the pictures anymore.

I'll upload the pictures soon.

2010-01-05T22:54:00.000-08:00

I miss Nicholas Chen Xian Rern!!

2010-01-04T16:46:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day babe start his National Service,

and I start my first day in semester 3.

I really do miss you babe but I’m avoiding the fact that I do.

I don’t want to break down and cry,

only babe knows.

Each time I cry, I’ll get so tired after that

cause each tears that fall are my true emotions.

Oh well,

babe contacted me today at 5.53 pm.

Yea I was shocked that he could still contact me

but he said they haven’t take his phone yet.

He said after dinner around 7.30 pm,

they will start collecting their phones.

But at 11.45 pm onwards, he called me for 4 times.

Saying that he miss me and love me with that gonna cry voice.

First day in National Service, he can’t sleep.

I just sms-ed him and said

“ I know you can’t sleep but you have to. You need energy for tomorrow.

I miss you too and I love you so much. “

From now onwards,

me and babe only will talk on Saturdays or Sundays.

He sounded so exited when he called me

and suddenly he said

“ dear I botak liao, will you leave me because I’m bald ? “

I just laugh and said

“ no la babe but I wonder how you look like. haha! “

Babe I just hope you’re safe.

I’ll pray for you EVERYDAY like you asked me to do.

Even you didn’t ask also I will pray for you, lols.

2010-01-03T00:18:00.000-08:00

Babe is going NS tomorrow.
I’m gonna miss him, so much.
Although I’m sad about him going there but it’s out of my boundaries.
I can’t always protect and keep him.

I was really angry yesterday,
I wanted to talk to him so badly, I wanted to tell that I really miss him
and that I will be waiting till the day he come home but
some “ people “ keep on taking it as a joke.

But everything is solved now, I guess.
Well not everything, oh yeah I officially hate you
( that person who answered babe’s phone for 3 times )

Arggghhh!!

I hate myself so much.
Everyone I care and love is going so far from me.

2006 : My best friend, Denise left without saying anything.
She migrated to US.

2009 : God-ma passed away, she was supposed to come to my confirmation.
But she left, I cried every time when I think about my confirmation.
Everyone had their god-parents beside them but I was with God-pa only.
Rest In Peace, God-ma.

2010 : Beginning of the year, babe going to NS.
Please come back fast, I’m gonna miss you.

Sometimes I wonder that what if I wasn’t here,
what would the world be ?
what would I be ?
will I know someone like babe ?

I guess I will never know.
I thank God for everything that he’s given me.

Everything happens for a reason.

Father Patrick said “ you’ll always tend to hurt the ones you love. “
In a way it’s true but no matter what happens
I will always try not to hurt the ones I love.

Babe take care, I’m officially missing you.

2010-01-01T00:55:00.000-08:00

wearing the bracelet that hubby gave me
which he thinks can't fit
and which it did fit,
in fact it's loose.

boo`

2009-12-31T20:20:00.000-08:00

31 December 2009

The date I went out with my hubby.
We laugh together,
get pissed off with each other
and love each other.
It was the best time ever spend.
* tears coming out, lols.

When we're watching movie,
I can't help myself hugging him tight in my arms.
I don't want him to go.
I want the moment to last forever,
tickling him was fun, haha.

I wanted to send him off but my heart was so heavy
and I started crying.
I cried silently and wipe off my tear as soon as he looked at me.
I don't want him to see me cry,
I love him so much.

I was going to walk away when I got a message from him
saying,
" Go, I don't want to let you see me cry, I love you. "

At that moment,
I just wanted to run to him and hug him
but the train arrived.

Gosh, why is this so hard?

3 months is kinda long.

I love you, Xian Rern.

Please be back soon.
You know I'll be missing you.

❤

2009-12-27T00:25:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas.

I've been busy these few days,
help mummy to cook until I fall asleep.
This year my maid when back to Indonesia,
so extra work for us.

Christmas this year wasn't fun.
No presents and if there were presents exist,
it would be useless like the previous years.

Babe is still in the overseas,
which make things more harder.
Usually he's here for me
and he's the one that will listen to all of my complains.
He will be back on Tuesday.

So I'm praying for the time to pass really fast.

I really do miss him.
A LOT LOT LOT LOT!!!!

2009-12-23T00:45:00.000-08:00

I miss you babe.
Today is the first day on your Beijing trip,
and I'm sick at home.
Hilarious right?
Hahaha.

I hope you're having fun with your family
and I hope you have loads of winter clothes on.

I'm not there to take care of you,
so take care of yourself babe.

I love you,
be back soon cause I miss you.

2009-12-16T18:37:00.000-08:00

Christmas is coming
and seriously speaking,
I have no Christmas feel.

Babe can't come for Christmas,
he and his family is going to Beijing
on the 23th and after that he's off to
National Service.

I'll be missing him
every second.

No more sunshine when you're gone
cause you are my sunshine.

❤

2009-12-10T01:25:00.000-08:00

I want this for Christmas, please.

2009-12-09T20:21:00.000-08:00

I’ll be joining Celebrity Fitness by this month.

Hopefully my goal this year is still not late to achieve.

Let’s make a recap of my goal for this year.

- ~~get a loving boyfriend.~~

- ~~get my own laptop~~

- ~~new camera~~

- ~~get new friends~~

- ~~new enviroment~~

- lose weight

- driving license

- travel overseas

Well apparently

this year I’ve achieved a lot of things in mind.

I got a loving boyfriend.

Nicholas Chen.

Funny and playful,

cunning little piggy but I still love him to the max.

Through good and bad times,

we go through it all together.

I love you hubby.

I got my own laptop.

Thanks to mom and

because of I’m studying designing,

she got me a Mac Book Pro.

I got my first DSLR camera.

Canon D1000

Enjoying it but it’s kind of irritating when everyone knows

you have a camera, they intend to call you all the time to

ask for a photographer

but hey I enjoyed the moments

( some of them, lols )

New friends.

Yeah, I entered college and met a few good friends.

At first it was Esther but we had few misunderstandings.

It’s okay now, I guess.

Now it’s with a new group.

老大：Sze Yee ( Luu Luu )

老二：Pei Shin ( 小姐姐 )

老三：Kei San ( Hong Kong Drama Queen )

老四：Jeng Mun ( Ah Mun / Mushroom )

老五： Su Lian & Su Hua ( The twins )

Well not forgetting another one.

Jo Bee ( Ah B )

Thanks to them a lot.

Last day of college we went karaoke together.

Best times ever.

Sze Yee, Pei Shin, Kei San, Ah Mun, Su Lian and Jo Bee.

Great time were spent.

The rest of the goal

I wish I could make it by this year,

or not I’ll just make it happen next year.

2009-12-08T19:38:00.000-08:00

all I can do in this holiday is

think think think.

2009-12-07T01:03:00.000-08:00

I've finished studying semester 2.
Sorry I didn't took any pictures from my assessments,
was running around to make it up together.

So now I'm on a long holiday.
I just hope next semester will be okay,
but Vivian ( lecturer ) said the war has just begun.
I was like laughing when she said that,
then she looked at me and said
" you better not laugh, I'm seriously telling you.
better be prepared for next semester in Mr.Vinod's class "
I just said
" okay okay okay "

But I was amazed at what she said,
" You guys can come and see me whenever you want,
any problem about anything just come and
see me cause I won't teach you next semester.
And don't call me teacher, Ms.Vivian or Miss just call me Vivian. "

Ahaks, respect to her lahh.

Anyways I just came back from Perak
and the water drought OMG freaks me,
I remember the last time I when back the sea water was clear
and then I could walk to the edge of the sea but now there's
tree growing in the middle of the path,
I walked half way then I stop and ask my uncle
" we walk wrong way is it? "
He said
" no lahh, just that suddenly these
trees grow in the middle of the path
so we can't go further. "

* signs

Will upload pictures on that soon.

2009-12-04T04:21:00.000-08:00

Should I be happy when everything is going bad?

Should I smile when you complain about me?

What you want me to do?

What can I do?

Am I supposed to push and force myself to do something I can't?

Why are you putting so high hope on me?

I'm just a normal human being.

I'll get sick,

I'll get bored,

I'll get angry

and I'll cry.

Is it wrong?

Sometimes I just feel of letting everything go.

But

Why can't I do it?

I am so disappointed with myself !

I feel like crying out everything

but for what purpose?

It will just make me feel more suffocated.

S.O.S

2009-11-29T20:34:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna

talk lesser

sms lesser

call lesser

facebook-ing lesser

eat lesser

That's my goal for now,

cause when I

talk more

sms more

call more

facebook-ing more

eat more

I am happy but I'm making others dislike me.

I'm gonna take three step back and shut the fuck up.

That's all for today.

2009-11-25T23:42:00.000-08:00

I'm so fucking stressed up,

my assessment is nearing.

All assignment are 80% done

but there's something bugging me.

I don't know what it is,

but I just don't feel right.

Everything is so weird.

I tolerate too much,

give face too much

until other people take advantage of me

and at the end I'm the one that's

getting the blame,

everything blame on me,

anything wrong happened blame me.

I'm having a fucked up life with no one to talk to.

NO ONE!!

No one in this whole wide world understands me.

I'm all alone.

2009-11-22T22:42:00.000-08:00

( click on image to view clearly )

I've working on my typography assignment.

Arrange one by one,

alphabet by alphabet,

haven't done yet tho.

It's a poster about One Malaysia

and my idea was to form Tunku Abdul Rahman's Merdeka pose

with wordings.

In the picture,

it's still in the process of forming the figure.

Will show progress.

Hopefully.

2009-11-22T05:48:00.000-08:00

The cold war begins again.

I promise him not to contact him until 14 Dec,

his last paper for SPM examination.

I said okay,

what other words can I say to make him stay with me?

I really do love him

but if something is keeping him back from me

and he wants to change that,

why should I stop him?

Giving him some time

and giving myself time to think it all over

and taking a break from everything.

I need to concentrate on my studies.

At least prepare myself for my end-term assessment.

Until here till the next time,

I have loads of work that I need to finish up.

2009-11-14T05:10:00.000-08:00

Day 1

I woke up and I tried to sleep again but I can’t,
I keep on thinking about him.
It’s really hard.

Cooked myself breakfast, maggi mee and egg.
I ate half way and vomited out everything.
I’m still sick I guess, whatever lahh.

Took my bath, get some money and I stopped a taxi
And went to my photo session.
I met up with Jinko and we was talking all the way to Titiwangsa.
As soon I reached Noel was already there.

It was raining heavily and I was so down but
I smiled and said “ it’s okay, it’ll stop raining. “

( Picture will be uploaded later on )

Eventually the rain stop and we continue our photo session.
Later on I met Alex and we went to Times Square for another photo session.

While we wait for the food to come,
I told her what happened and I cried.
Tears were rolling down like never before.

And suddenly I got a message from him.

“ Day 1 : I started to miss you edi, not too much, mayb I’m busy studying, just some more time and I’ll be ok. 14/11 “

I just covered my face and cry more.

Babe, I miss you too.
I don’t wanna reply cause I scare if I do that it’ll break our promise.
I’m trying my best to keep our promise.

I miss you, Nicholas Chen.

2009-11-14T04:57:00.000-08:00

13/11/09

He said he needs time, if he needs time I’ll give him time.
Yes I did try to drag for a moment but after I prayed,
A thought came to me, it said ;

“ if you love him, just let him go, he might come back one day. “

Well I am sad of what happened but what can I say?
I tried fixing things up, it didn’t work.

He said he needs time to appreciate me more.

Babe, go ahead.
I love you and if you need time I’ll give you all the time in the world.

14th November 2009 is our 16th monthsary = 1 year and 4 months

And I will count every day, time and second until you come back to me.

2009-11-11T17:08:00.000-08:00

I’m moodless lately.
I take things for granted.
I’ve been causing a lot of problem to myself and to others.
I don’t like my habits.
I want to change myself, to be a better person.
Will anyone help me?
I’m a clingy person, how am I supposed to change that in a week?
I’m a lazy person, how am I supposed to make myself to work harder?
I’m a junk when it comes to fixing things up, how am I supposed to deal with that?
I tried what I could but I still can’t make it done.
What should I do?
Should I forget everything and move on?
How?
And why should I move on when I’m liking what I have now?
I love my relationship with Nicholas Chen.
Although I hurt him and make him feel irritated,
I still love him , I still care for him.
I will forever love him no matter what happens.
It’s the one and only thing that I personally think I did my best, loving him.
How can I find a love like yours?
The good times we share,
The times we laughed together, make each other felt so in love is the time
I cherished the most in my entire life.
You thought me how to love someone unconditionally.
We love each other so much.
Where did the love “ nicscha “ that I use to know?
I love you Nicholas Chen.
I hope you know that I sincerely love you with all my heart.
I swear I do.
I’m sorry for hurting you,
I’m sorry for scolding you,
I’m sorry for making you feel irritated.
Thank you for accepting me for who I am.
Thank you for being there when I needed someone.
Thank you for giving me the strength to move on.
Thank you for making me a part of your life.
I hope our relationship won’t end because I know I will try my very best to make everything worth all this while.
I love you and I love our love, Nicscha.

2009-11-08T23:08:00.000-08:00

I miss her,

Denise I hope you're doing fine there.

Heard about the break up, hope you're okay.

You know I'm always here for you even we're so far apart now.

I miss you girl.

Hope you'll be back her in Malaysia

and we could hang out like old times.

Miss those times.

2009-11-08T06:28:00.000-08:00

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Everything seems not right.

Tired of assignments,

tired of life,

tired of college,

tired of designing,

tired of talking,

talking of walking.

I'm tired of everything

and no one is making me loving my life.

I've tried every single way to make my life more lively

but nothing is going to change.

The world keeps on spinning

and no one is going to change for me,

so why must I change ?

Give me a good explanation and I'll make that change.

2009-11-06T02:00:00.000-08:00

To : NCXR

Baby,

there's many challenges you're going to face now.

Your SPM is nearing.

Study hard is all I ask from you,

make mummy daddy proud

and make them feel that what they invest in these whole time

was worth-it.

I know that you don't like to study

but this will be your last examination in secondary school.

You always say you know what to do,

I really hope you know what to do lahh.

I love you baby.

Study hard while I work hard.

Together work our way thru this life.

Don't worry,

I'm here for you.

2009-11-02T16:54:00.000-08:00

I have a new assignment

where I have to make 2 posters.

1st : My hometown

2nd : 1 Malaysia

Idea keeps coming in and out,

but I can't find the right one.

I can't lay my idea down on a piece of paper,

that is what I'm getting frustrated now.

The more I think of it the more irritated I am.

I was hoping for some awesome idea to come out of my brains.

Lecture liked my research

and asked me to do more research and find more photos

on people's expressions.

So yea, I'm gonna do my research now.

Till then peeps.

2009-10-28T20:12:00.000-07:00

Dear,

I'm sorry for hurting.

I'm such an idiot.

I hate myself for hurting you,

all those words I said to you

I wish that I could take it all back.

I didn't meant it.

I would do anything to make it up to you.

I promise I won't do it again,

I love you Nicholas Chen

and I want to be with you for the rest of my life.

I'm such as fool for making you cry,

I'm sorry.

I truly am sorry.

Forgive this funny face, will you?

I love Nicscha

now and forever.

❤

2009-10-27T02:49:00.000-07:00

Dear sms-ed me just now saying :

" Dear can talk with me?

I need you, I feel left "

I straight away called him.

He sounded so sad.

Like he just cried,

and I asked him

" you okay? "

he just answered

" mummy here, sms lahh "

And when I sms-ed him,

he said he was scare.

I asked why but he didn't reply.

J : Baby I'm really worried about you.

You sounded so sad like you just cried.

You okay? Please answer me.

N : Dear always be with me ?

J : Yes yes yes.

Dear are you okay ?

Why are you crying?

N : I miss you, I wanna hug you.

J : Muacks, don't cry. I'm here for you. I love you.

2009-10-25T18:01:00.000-07:00

I cooked dinner last night

and here's the results of it.

Looks delicious and it is delicious, lols.

It's called Cabonara de' Rawrrpiggster,

I've created the name on behalf of me.

HAHAHAHA

Sexay, I won!

My cooking looks better and taste better than yours.

2009-10-17T23:32:00.000-07:00

( click image to view clearer )

My drawings.

This is how my assessment looks like.

Looks easy but it's hard.

One piece of figure/drawing takes a few hours to draw

IF you're in the mood but if you aren't

then 3 days also can't finish.

LOL`

2009-10-16T02:32:00.000-07:00

( click on images to view clearer )

my darling laptop,

I've been spending most of my time with my laptop

until my eyes hurt so badly.

As you can see from the picture,

I'm doing my illustration tracing.

Still half way there.

Lord, give me the strength.

( in the above picture)

My photography assessment.

I thought I will kena whack nicely from Mr.Sam ( lecturer )

but I didn't.

* relieved

Here's the story,

yesterday about 9.45 pm

I rushed to Jaya Jusco with daddy to print two more photograph.

When I reach there, started print the picture and etc.

then ;

Daddy : How much is everything?

Me : * look towards the " dude " How much everything?

Dude : Err, RM 16

Daddy : * looking for his wallet and looked at me. " I didn't bring my wallet."

Me: * == check my purse and found of that I only left RM 8 <<>>

Well,

it ended with the dude saying

" it's okay, I understand.. what if you pay me RM8 first and

come back tomorrow to pay because we're closing down already."

* claps

Luckily he understands our situation or not..

My photography assessment will be a disaster.

Thanks dude.

2009-10-15T00:22:00.000-07:00

Well finally everything get back to the way it was,

i guess.

Assessment is nearly ending,

left only photography.

The biggest mistake in life is to make wrong accusation,

well basically i just hate people complaining about the pass.

If you had a bad relationship just move on

and don't talk bad about your previous partner.

You might already spend a few decade with your partner

and yes, you might know them well enough but still

talking bad about them is just not right.

Just shushh and move on

and try not to show off your newbie too much,

lols.

I'm really tired lately.

I just found out that my eyes are sensitive towards light,

lately I have whole-lot of work that I couldn't get my eyes off my laptop.

My eyes hurt till the fact that I closed all the light

and I sit in the living room with just the television on.

Serious shit at that time my eyes were so comfortable.

Please end my misery,

don't add my work load.

To sexay ;

Study hard,

SPM is around the corner and I really want to see you pass in your

examination, despite you being naughty all the time.

Just hope you'll focus okay ?

At this time you'll be having all kinds of pressure,

from friends, family and maybe even me.

Stay strong and always think positive.

❤

2009-09-25T19:56:00.000-07:00

Thursday 24Sept09
made me miss him so badly today.
I went out with my baby.
We watched two movies together.
First movie we watch was
Tsunami at Haeundae.

The second movie,
hahaha.
The movie watch us.
Baby saw the movie already so I don't really care
cause the movie was bored enough for me to doze off.
Babyy entertained me.
I love you!
Teehee :DD

2009-09-07T21:45:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since I really updated my blog.
Well, lately what’s happening in my life is
there have been too much gossiping, backstabbing and hearts been broken.
It happens among my college life.
As much as I hate being the person people mess with,
I hated the person that I was quite close with once upon a time.

According to her

( when the last time I talked to her )

she said she didn’t take me ask her friend since the very first beginning she met me.

I don’t get it because few minutes later she said

“ I thought you were one of my best friends”.

It made me thinking which one is the truth?

She complained saying that I didn’t wish her happy birthday.

Not only that she also told me that

She was only pleasing me all the time.

I don’t get it with this kind of people.

This is the truth if you’re reading this.
At first, yes I hated you because of our classmates influence
but for me I think that I shouldn’t have listen to people first because I don’t really know you personally at that time and then you got into a misunderstanding with your own group that’s when I get close to you because you were alone.
And day by day, the hatred disappear.
I was thinking to myself, “ Hey she’s not that bad like what they say, it’s who she is.”
Slowly I learned to adapt to your attitude.
For me at that time you were already considered as my best friend
but you said I wasn’t a friend to you.

Second, you said I didn’t wish you happy birthday.
By now you already know my attitude towards people.
I wouldn’t tell them directly what I want to tell them but I’ll just give hints and on your birthday, didn’t I spend my whole day with you?
Early morning wake up, go to college and wait for you to get dressed.
Accompany you to watch a movie, shop a little and when I thought I did my best.
Your ex hint me with his phone saying “ You wanna come to her surprise party?” and I said yes.
I called my mum and told her that I’m going to your house and she scolded me but did I told you that?
I don’t think so.
Celebrated your birthday with your best friends.
I was the only college friend that celebrated your birthday in your house.
I go in the car and I get scold from my parents for spending my whole day outside.
For me spending my whole day with you isn’t it enough to tell you that I’m here for you and happy birthday?
I don’t get it with you.
You keep on calculating, I mean by now you should know.
I was never using you but if you think I am then okay.
I’ll let you think that I’m that kind of person.
There’s no point for me to explain,

If you don’t get it then it’s just a waste of time for me to spend time here and writing this out.
About the rest I think I’ve already talked to you about it.
I was your friend before and I still have a heart.
RAWRR™

2009-09-04T01:15:00.000-07:00

I don't know why all of a sudden I'm feeling so down.

I tried calling Nic but he's not answering,

and yes I've tried messaging him as while but he didn't reply also.

He is the only one who can't cheer me up now and he is not answering.

I'm really sad to the stage that I can cry anytime now.

I don't even know why I'm sad,

stupid me!

I need to slap myself!

Wake up! Wake up!

Oh God, why am I feeling this way?

Please make me stop feeling this way!

I'll totally effect the people around me,

wake up Jessica!

Am I worried but about what ?

Why am I feeling insecure all of a sudden?

Can anybody explain this feeling?

I'm totally blurred out!

2009-08-26T17:53:00.000-07:00

❤

I got my new laptop.

Mac Book Pro!

Yaahooo!!

It's getting really cold in college,

so I decided to go for a vacation with my family.

Cameron Highlands!

2009-08-13T05:24:00.000-07:00

Today was quite fun in college.
I was finally early for GD2 class,
as soon as I arrived I start to pin up the work that Ms.Vivian gave.
Esther came in late today.

Today's assignment :
Invent pictograms for the whole Graphic/Illustration department.

Ms.Vivian : Remember your numbers *1 2 1 2 1 2 1 2..

Us : *whispers die lohh.

Ms.Vivian : Okay, get into your groups now.
Group 1 infront and 2 behind.

I was in the second group.
Discuss like mad then then at last came out with a solid idea,
then all of us sketch..
Suddenly out of no where, Pei Shin and Jeng Mun
started to play games.
........................
Johnny johnny ... V ... Johnny V

Anyway,
we manage to finished up our work
although we all run like mad to the printing shop.
Haha :DD

2009-08-05T06:40:00.000-07:00

After 3 weeks of holiday,
now I'm back to college.
Starting a new semester,
I was hoping for a new kick start.

Well you saw the word " hoping " right ?
So yeah,
thing didn't go like what I was hoping for.

Same friends same scenario again.
Not complaining, just spilling out my emotion.

So what you have a boyfriend now?
I don't give a fuck,
but if you keep on showing him off
and being all moshy in front of everyone,
obviously people wouldn't want to
" spoil your lovey dovey moment"
but if it gets too much..
who wouldn't walk off ?

Macam jadi tiang lampu plak.

2009-07-19T03:04:00.000-07:00

My final assessment for Semester 1
(Foundation)

My artworks,
somehow other people's artworks like more
than mine.

Sze Yee's chicken.

Su Lian's

other classmate's artworks.

Esther posing with her artworks.

Wen Qun's Nando Chicken.

Don't ask about my chicken,
I won't talk about it.
LMAO!!
I did it for less than an hour,
whereas the other more
than 5 hours.

The end of semester 1.

Holiday for 3 weeks

2009-06-28T05:42:00.000-07:00

Baby,
I don't want to know your past.
I'm your present now,
let's move to the future together.

Whatever happened in the past
before you and me are one,
I want you to leave it all behind.

Good memories between you and me,
will always be perished.

I love you.

17 days left

❤

2009-06-20T06:54:00.000-07:00

I have no idea what to write on my blog ,
like busy-body ..
I go drop by other people's blog .

Don't worry, I didn't corrupt your blogs .
Just finding ideas .

So I guess I'm just gonna talk about this week .
No pictures for this post ,
I didn't charge my battery .

The finals are around the conner and I'm pretty worried about it .
I haven't done my three drawing piece !
I'm trying to cope with those drawing but it's hard
cause I hate using pencil color and crayons
but I guess no matter what I still have to push myself and try my best .

11 more days to finals
24 more days to Nicscha's 1st anniversary !

2009-06-12T04:30:00.000-07:00

Today's movie features,

Drag Me To Hell.

Sam Raimi's Drag Me to Hell,

Raimi calls it a 'spook-a-blast,'

a wild ride with all the chills and spills that 'Evil Dead' delivered,

without relying on the excessive violence of that film.

Filming has begin in Los Angeles, CA.

Director Sam Raimi (Spider-Man trilogy, Evil Dead series)

returns to the horror genre with Drag Me To Hell,

an original tale of a young woman’s desperate quest to break an evil curse.

Christine Brown (Alison Lohman) is an ambitious L.A. loan officer

with a charming boyfriend, professor Clay Dalton (Justin Long).

Life is good until the mysterious Mrs. Ganush (Lorna Raver) arrives at the bank

to beg for an extension on her home loan.

Should Christine follow her instincts and give the old woman a break?

Or should she deny the extension to impress her boss, Mr. Jacks (David Paymer),

and get a leg-up on a promotion?

Christine fatefully chooses the latter,

shaming Mrs. Ganush and dispossessing her of her home.

In retaliation,

the old woman places the powerful curse of the Lamia on Christine,

transforming her life into a living hell.

Haunted by an evil spirit and misunderstood by a skeptical boyfriend,

she seeks the aid of seer Rham Jas (Dileep Rao)

to save her soul from eternal damnation.

To help the shattered Christine return her life to normal,

the psychic sets her on a frantic course to reverse the spell.

As evil forces close in,

Christine must face the unthinkable: how far will she go to break free of the curse?

Freaking scary man!

Worst comes to worst,they had to find an old lady

to be the co-ghost in the movie.

How can I sleep tonight lahh?

Rebecca, I'm seriously telling you

the next time we go for a movie,

YOU ARE NOT PICKING!

NOPE !

NOT AT ALL !

Baby I love you.

Thanks for getting there,

although you came late but it's apologize.

Lub chu!

2009-06-06T01:53:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to KLCC with two crazy chicks
Alex and Esther to watch movie.
So in the end,
we decide to watch Angels & Demons.

Written by Dan Brown BEFORE he wrote The Da Vinci Code,
Angels & Demons is a vastly more
gripping, mesmerising and powerful,
yet equally as addictive and sure-fire page turner.
He’s by no means the greatest writer ever born,
but Dan Brown has a genuine gift
for writing books which you simply can’t put down.

And now, just like The Da Vinci Code,
Angels & Demons is set to become a motion movie,
again starring Tom Hanks, but also Ewan McGregor this time around.

The movie was AWESOME
but unfortunately the three of us were
freezing cold in the cinema.

After the movie,
we went for late lunch at Chili's.

Alex and her pigg face.

Esther promoting her food as well as Chili's.

This was mine.

When we finish eating the whole table
was in a mess,
too full until Esther had to tapao all the food.
While we was talking,
Alex murdered the corn.

Poor Mr.Corn.
You were supposed to go in Esther's and my stomach
but someone corrupted it with
their dirty finger.

[P/S : Alex did it]

After the murder case,
we hop on the car and drove back to college
and here goes our mini karaoke moments.

Reminiscing the old times.

Well it was the only thing we can do,
cause it was the peak hour
and Esther keep on "potong - ing " our steam
by changing the songs.

When we reached the college,
we saw Alvint, Gary, Fick and Wen Qun
still doing their work.
[P/S : 7.30 pm]

So dedicated students, haha !

Alex also started her work,
tak nak dikalahkan oleh juniors.
Hahaha!

While Alex is doing her work,
I was going thru her iPod and changing songs
and not choosing the "love bug" song.

At the same time,
someone already pengsan.

The End

Rawrrpiggster™

2009-06-04T06:43:00.001-07:00

This was my assignment for today.
We were told to draw on a colored paper,
Olympic Classical Card - A2 size
and only allowed to use color pencils.

Well, basically I haven't done mine.
Here's what we have to draw.

And this is supposed to be the outcome
of my assignment.
These artworks are from my seniors in MIA.
Really salute them,
give me your knowledge!!
Haha!

How was it ?
You think art is easy,
try drawing it.

2009-06-02T23:25:00.000-07:00

This is the continuation of the below post,

I really hope I had the before picture of our model

cause she really looks different.

Way different.

Next time I have to remind myself

to take the before picture of our transformation.

Well,

let me tell you roughly how she looked like before.

She had short hair,black in colour.

Wore specs.

Not a person who has good taste in picking outfits to wear,

but me and Esther helped her to change her look

from normal to fabulous.

2009-06-02T22:16:00.000-07:00

Last week Saturday we had a photoshoot,

I'm just the photographer.

Oh my gosh, you wouldn't believe your eyes if you saw

our model

( the before and after )

but unfortunately my pendrive is with my classmate now

and he has gone somewhere,

some horse racing stuff for a competition.

So I have to write the post without the photos,

hope you can co-operate with me

and

chillax!

2009-05-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

This whole week is a complete mess .
I've had my assessment for the whole course,
graphic design assignment was completely last minute.

Right after assessment,
homework came in like thunder flood .
I'm really trying to cope with the schedule .
Everything is a mess now.

Yesterday with my good mood going online to do my research,
suddenly out of a sudden..
she asked me a question I can barely answer .
and because of her explanation,
I got so speechless.

" Don't contact him too much",
that's what she said.

Then I called him up and told him,
and guess what he said..
"why are you complaining this to me?"

There goes my whole night.

I break down in college this afternoon,
I felt so tired and so stressed out with everything that happened recently.
It's like no matter what I do,
sure there's someone or something holding me back.

I really give up on everything .

Problems,
stay away from me .
I don't need you.
Leave me alone !

2009-05-22T06:59:00.000-07:00

Well, college is fun
but with that someone ruins my whole day.

Can't she just leave me alone ?
I'm feeling damn fucked up now .
What's her fucking problem ?

I simply don't join her anymore cause of her stupid attitude.
So is it my fault that she has attitude problem ?

She talk in this weird kinda slang ,
keep on adding "em em em "
in every sentence.
Sounds superb fake .

And she can't even accept comments on her job .

As a designer,
you always have to accept others comment or opinion
on your work or design.
It's a way to improve your work quality .

If you want people to fake their opinion all the time ,
go and ask a dummy okay ?
If you ask me for opinion ,
I'll give you what I really think.
So just fucking accept it la .

Sendiri tanya, sendiri fikir la .

So now I'm telling " you " ,
I don't like your attitude,
not even a bit .
When you give comment on my work ,
I'll accept even if it's bad or good but if I give an honest opinion
you'll be thinking I have fucking grudges on you .

Up to you ,
you want to let your mind wonder on what I'm thinking of you.
Just leave me alone.
And don't make accuse saying that I shouted at you .
I remember what I said !
So don't be a drama queen
and fucking act your stupid emotions.
I won't work on me .

Cry all you want, bee - yotch .

2009-05-16T03:35:00.000-07:00

I forgot to put in these pictures .
I took it when I was in my drawing class,
and this is what I had to draw .

My Recent Assignments

2009-05-16T03:09:00.000-07:00

Graphic Design

* Jack and Jill progress !
- All hand-drawn with graphic pen,
that explains my swollen finger.

Art and Fundamental Design
* Color Harmony And Variation.
- too much detailing until I had to use
number 0 brush, the smallest brush.

* Color Wheel

- turn your head sideways,
it might help .

College mates !

2009-05-13T22:47:00.000-07:00

Cordie

* He has a cool mum that buys him wardrobe from head to toe .

* He has a model's face .

Esther

* She has a lot of nicknames like Acer,Oyster,Turtle .

* Rumours : People use to call her Ninja Turtle .

Lee Yang

* He talks in those thick chinese language .

* He barely speaks in chinese .

Min Xian

* You'll never get bored with her, she has loads of stuff to tell you .

Jayz

* He's from the Music Department .

I hang out with this peeps today .

Damn noisy, all of us are fighting for space to play our music .

Imagine all of us playing diferrent songs at the same time .

Macam pasar malam !

But we came up with a master plan,

take turn to play .

(P/S : Big master plan right ? )

Teehee ;DD

Rawrrpiggster !

2009-05-10T02:39:00.000-07:00

I miss my piggy !

Geramnya !
After mid-term break,
I'm gonna meet him.
I miss pinching his chubby cheeks !

2009-05-08T06:23:00.000-07:00

Mid-term break is here!
Oh what the hell, it's not like I can drop my brush and lay back .
I met few people that I can really talk with in college
these past weeks.

May I introduce

Alex
the chumel bubbly..ehh..
err.. jyeah Alex !

and here is Mr.Kangblabla
or Alex's way of calling him
let me spell it..
"juli uli wuli "

lebeh kurang lahh !

Honestly,
I was relieve to find humans that I can really talk to
in my mother tongue.
*sign
I'm still in the process of learning to speak chinese fluently.

Anyhow,
I guess it's the end of this post.

Rawrrpiggster™

Let me see..

2009-05-03T02:40:00.000-07:00

I went to a party yesterday,
a baby boy's party.

And yeahh ..
it was so AWESOME
The only song that was playing was

" THE ELMO'S SONG "

My face expression was like elmo's song ...
ohh ..
ehh..

Blur gilerr babbii doh!!
I thought my cousins were coming,
I was doped kaw kaw !

No one came
except for the " ELMO KIDS "

2009-05-01T19:41:00.000-07:00

I've been writing so much about friendship lately.
It makes me bored after some time.

Well, I guess college life isn't
that bad.
I mean the people aren't gonna change for you and
it doesn't mean that if they didn't change then I have to.

Nothing is gonna change.
Not a single thing.

Here's a message to Rebecca.

Girl I know life has been pretty hard for you.
Just chill.
I'm as your best friend,will always give you support.
Even if physically I'm not there but
you can call or message me.
I'm always here for you.

Life doesn't always follow your ways
but you can always do your best in everything you do,
sometimes people will tick you off.
That's the way they are.

Just chill all the way.
Just act blind, deaf and dumb.
It help, sometimes.

Challenges in Friendship

2009-05-01T19:33:00.000-07:00

There is no such thing as an honest friendship
that doesn't have as part of it
disagreements, hurt feelings, jealousy and anger.

They key is to remember that
friendship is the most important thing
and your pride,
your need to be right , is second.

Work it out with your heart and
know that the friendship will only get
stronger with each challenges.

Being Judged

2009-04-24T02:21:00.000-07:00

Every single one of us has had to
endure being judged for something about ourselves
that does not deserve judgement
- too tall, too skinny, too fat, not pretty, too pretty, talks funny,acts different
and so on .

In fact ,
more often than not we are the ones doing the judging .
As long as there are things about ourselves
that we do not accept,
we're vulnerable to the judgement of the others
being overly critical of us,
it has very little to do wit us
and a lot to do with how they feel about themselves .

When we learn to truly accept ourselves,
the judgements and the cruelty
of the others will roll of our backs .

People who put other people down,
they do it because they feel bad about themselves .
This is not just something people say to make you feel better .
It is absolutely true .

If we feel bad about ourselves,
we see ugliness everywhere .

If we feel good about ourselves,
we see goodness everywhere .

2009-04-19T01:31:00.000-07:00

Emo-ing today .
No post.

Coursemates ?

2009-04-17T04:13:00.000-07:00

Friends

2009-04-16T03:46:00.000-07:00

College life for me is quite interesting
but at times I kinda discover
the many types of people.

As for me I learn to be
blind, deaf and dumb.

At times I will think,
what am I doing there ?
The purpose is to study
but how come I got involved in the chaos ?

I thought in a class ,
we should have the spirit of togetherness
doesn't matter who the person is and
where they come from
we supposed to be friendly to them .

In my point of view ,
they like to pick friends.
Keep the pretty ones and the ugly ones been pushed aside .
What's wrong in mixing around with someone
you obviously spend for the rest of your days in your college life ?

If you don't believe ,
you can personally look back in your daily lives .
Do you pick friends ?

Doesn't matter if you'll get along with the person or not ,
what matters is you've tried to make friends with them .

This is my point of view ,
what's yours ?